Saturday, August 12, 2006
dealing with things...
I know you've been missing me. =PThere's just too much going on with my life lately that I felt I needed some breather. Last week, I've been trying to fix my PC of some trojan (coolweb) and it was so hard to fix. I gave up and resorted to reformatting again. My PC's good as new again, for the 3rd time since we had it. Well, here I am and back to blogging again. I hope I haven't entirely lost that spark.
For the past week, I've been trying to do some healing over the loss of one of our labs. I'm not good with dealing with losses...much more with death. Taffy's been sick eversince my birthday. We thought it wasn't that worse. It was like the usual bout of loss of appetite and excreting blood. He has never been exactly "fat" like our older labradors. He was plain skinny and his feces eversince has never been solid. For one week, we tried feeding him with table food and it kinda worked...or so we thought.The second week was worst. He completely succumbed to some strange disease. When he started having muscle problems and spasms, we already consulted a vet and she told us it could be distemper. I was in some sort of denial, often asking my mom if we had vaccinated Taffy for distemper. She wasn't sure. Distemper was a scary disease and Taffy was in his worst stage. Meaning, it already reached his nervous system...which accounted for the spasms. I researched about the disease and it said that there was a 50% chance for survival for adult dogs. Taffy was just reaching his 2nd year.
It took us lots of patience and dedication just to give Taffy the necessary medications and to help him eat. It came to a point when he started crying too much that I could barely bear hearing him. We had an option for mercy killing in order to avoid spreading the disease to our other dogs. I didn't want to. No one here wants to. Taffy was fighting. He could have died earlier but he didn't.
Up to the last minute, we never gave up. We thought he was going to die last Saturday, Aug. 5. He was already catching his breath and he couldn't even take in fluid. He still made it until Sunday. It was only then that I really took care of him. Turned him on his other side, as he was immobile, just so he won't have sores. Blow dried his little fur. Made milk for him to drink and helped Mama give him his medications as he was swallowing fluids again. But I was scared then. I fear of relapse just like in the movies I saw. One minute you thought he'd survive, the next minute, he's worse again. My fear turned into reality as I saw him battle it out to the end. He died Sunday night. Luckily it rained. Otherwise, I would have heard him cry again.
Honestly, I cried. Until now, I still do. I prayed to God every night to let my dog live. It was only at the last minute that I started praying for Him to do what's best for my dog. At the last minute, I patted my dog and told him to finally let go if he feels like it. He has suffered enough.
It was I who wrapped my dog in plastic. The last time I did that was when I was taking Bio 102 and wrapped my cat. It was the last thing I can do for him. If only I had enough money, I could have done so much more.
I'm missing my dog badly. Taffy's really makulit kasi. He seems to be always smiling. He's usually inside the house before because Cathe wants him inside sana. Unfortunately, our house can't accomodate a second bigger dog.
The lesson of the story? Always make sure you keep track of your dog's med record. And to compensate for that, we called the vet and had our dogs updated of necessary medications. Buttercup, our black lab's having some problems too so we had her treated as well. It could be only worms daw. No more excuses this time.
I say there's a virus going around here in the community. Two of our neighbors' dogs died already before Taffy and aside from Buttercup, our neighbor's shih tzu's sick as well. Polar's on dextrose now. I hope it isn't distemper too.
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Now, on a lighter side, I'd just like to share that I've already watched Sukob during one of our ISPs last August 4. I watched it with Danci and Daisy. That was after we had lunch with Hannie and Roselle. Unfortunately, they had to do some other stuff later that afternoon.
Gateway had the show on free seating. For lack of anything to do, we went in line 30 minutes early, which was actually a good thing because less than 10 minutes after, the line was really long already. We grabbed some good seats because of that.
Cathe had watched Sukob a couple of days before me so I knew what was to come already. Danci was the more critical one. He criticized the movie a good more than couple of times. Daisy, on the other hand, almost ripped the sleeve of my uniform and almost bruised my arm from pinching. 'Twas okay. Funny. ;p
I think Sukob's the first scary movie watched in the big screen. I'm not one to go screaming over some scary scene as I'm not easily scared, but it got me once...that scene when a hand grabbed Claudine's inside the morgue. I think I did scream. I just didn't hear myself. The screams probably drowned it.
Good movie. Kris' jewelry was really limited. It was all pearls...and some tiny diamond. =p
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Acad mode now.
3 weeks to go and we're going to have exams again. Boohoo!
This neuro module's kinda crazy. Good thing that we have some background about it from Psych. But that isn't enough.
For the first time, I've seen a spinal cord from lab. Our brain specimens aren't exactly good. The brain specimens from our Psych were better. Good thing Dr. Ampil kept on asking brain specimens from students just to boost their grades. That was a good thing. :)
I've been focusing much on reading and hopefully, it'll do me better this time. My biochem book's full of post-its already from too much note taking...just so I won't have to read everything all over again *as if I won't be doing that...probably if I don't have any time left*. I haven't memorized a single cycle from biochem though.
I'm really enjoying med school. It's just the studying that's tiring.
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I hope the second exams push through as planned just so I can go with Papa at his org's convention/election at Villa Escudero. Been hoping to get there. I can make use of some decent free time. :)
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