Sunday, January 27, 2008
dealing with another loss...and hopefully the last for now.
I'm currently sick with something I have yet to know. Tuesday marks a week of it and well...I'm still clueless as ever.
Yesterday marks Bowie's week long death. Yep. Bowie died. That was after almost two weeks of treatment, being on IV, and using 11 IV bags (special thanks to Papa for finally agreeing to pay for Bowie's meds). I have tried to be strong about it pero it took a long time for the tears to stop flowing everytime I think of him. See...Bowie was one of the top favorites here. He was sweet, very loving, adorable, and whatever good adjective you can ever think of. He was sick even before New Year came, but he really fought hard. As in. I prayed nights for his recovery...if you count it all, it can even surpass a novena. I thought he'd recover. Let's just say I trust God too much. When he died, sobrang nagtampo talaga ako kay Lord. I asked for at least a year. He didn't give it. But come to think of it, Bowie had heartworm more than a year ago. He could have died, but then, he lived for a year and a few months more. And I can't help regret that if only we were that conscientious in his medications, he could have lived longer. Bowie died of heartworm complications particularly a pulmo problem and renal failure. The sad part of it all, he died when we weren't around. I guess that's how most dogs die...they don't want to be seen. Mama and Papa came home first, but they didn't inform us about it immediately because my sis and I were studying at Starbucks. That hurt...coming home to realize that there'll be no Bowie to check up every day. It has sort of been a routine eh...calling home every now and then to check up if Bowie's okay, changing his IV bag if it's ubos na, checking if his IV's still flowing, and all those "vet" stuff. Wala na. Six years gone. In one instant, things at the house have changed. We only have a single lab left...Rhum, who happens to be Bowie and Peachy's son. A memory that they left behind. You know what, I also realized something more when Bowie died...that I got to understand my mother more. Na hindi pala ako dapat naiinis pag sinasabi niyang wag na kaming mag-alaga ng aso. It's just that nasasaktan din siya pag namamatay sila...lalo na't si Mama yung laging nag-aalaga at nakakasama ng mga aso sa bahay. She probably misses them more than we do...magaling lang talaga si Mama magdala. How I wish I could be like her. Ganito lang talaga ako ka-sentimental na tao...especially when animals are concerned. I just wish Bowie, Peachy, Buttercup, and Tuffy are all reunited happily in heaven. And now I have to deal with adjustment and memories. Kahit mga kapitbahay namin naninibago. We used to have so many dogs eh. And now, I have only Rhum and Jamjam left to shower with love. Ha! =p
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