crap!

naiinis lang talaga ako...i'm so busy...i woke up, ate, and then faced the computer...to think of it, the last thing i did is face my computer too a while ago before i have slept at around 2am. watda?!?!

i just hate it...i still haven't posted one of my blog entries...it's still a draft...i still have to do some major editing on it...therefore, i can't post it...i have more pictures to post pa...but i guess i have to postpone all that for next week...after all this hustle and bustle caused by the last week of classes are over...

i just couldn't explain it...i really try hard to finish everything on time...really...even if it means that i'll be sleeping for like 1 hour max...i try to do things immediately not only for academic purpose but to use the extra free time for leisure and for myself...but then again, might as well work hard on something and tire my ass sitting in our wiggling computer chair...coz after doing all the work i am supposed to do, more work come in...seeing that i'm done, they think that i'm doing nothing anymore...so they ask me to do more things...NOW WHERE WAS THAT EXTRA TIME FOR MYSELF THEN, HUH? harumph! :(

i was watching a movie on DVD awhile ago...it was supposed to be comedy...i was laughing, yeah...but then again, i have to pause it a lot of times since i have to do this and that...hey?!?! when can i have fun naman? haay...don't try to act cheerio on me coz i ain't happy right now...

YOU GET MY POINT?!

baliw na ata ako...

first of all, i made one major decision today na alam kong pagsisisihan ko for a long time...period!

then, i learned something from someone (i won't tell from whom and what)...nung una, umiral ang pagiging tampururot ko (thanks for reminding me again of that term, bang)...tapos na-realize ko, tama nga yung someone na iyon...if i got to know that something, tatawa lang ako sabay iyak...shit! how creepy can i get? kawawa na yung bio book ko...napapatakan lang ng luha ko...remembrance? hindi ko pa alam if tears of joy or sadness ito...

ang pag-ibig talaga...now, i'm getting more desperate...to that someone, don't worry about me...kahit papaano, there's still that thin nylon thread of hope that's deeply embedded in my heart (sheesh! now i'm becoming baduy)...basta, next time, talk to me ha...conversation is very much open...haay...next time, i won't let my acads and other problems interfere with our communication lines...you're still important to me...more than anything and anyone...mas mahal kita...mahal ka rin i-maintain eh...hehe!=P

i really need my personal diary na...baka isipin ng mga nagbabasa ng blog ko na ang weird ko...medj lang...;)

ngiti raw ako ng ngiti...eh sa gusto ko...

sabi ni cathe, para na raw akong baliw...ewan ko lang ha...if i know, natuwa siya doon sa pictures ko sa cam niya (yeah...finally, may sony cybershot na ang aking sisterette...hopefully, xda ko na ang susunod...negotiations are currently going)...ayaw nila non...eh sa masaya ako despite the workload...nasobrahan ata ng optimism ang bruha...

anyway, had my 3rd physics exam today...it was relatively easy...kainis lang kasi may 3 akong mali na purely katangahan talaga...

anyway, pag-uwi ko, dumiretso ako sa dining table...hayun...halos inubos ko ang aming "supposedly" dinner...tapos, biglang na-open up ni mama yung topic na may bagong manliligaw raw yung kapitbahay namin...at...at...may kotse pa...eh di napasilip ako sa labas...eh bakit ba hindi ko napansin yung kulay "taeng" kotse sa labas kanina pagpasok ko? am not so observant talaga...

napaisip ako...alam niyo kasi, yung tinutukoy kong kapitbahay eh kasing edad ng sis ko...kaka-bday lang din niya last march 19...ang taba niya dati...she underwent a crash diet that left her in the hospital for weeks...ulcer daw...as in major ulcer ang napala niya...

ok naman sana siya dati...friend nga namin ng sis ko...parang kapatid ko rin...pareho silang mataba dati...pero si sis, pumayat the right way...no crash diets or anything...nag-iba yung ugali ng kapitbahay namin...naging sutil in a way...pasaway na...spoiled brat...gustong nasusunod siya lagi...medyo klepto na rin...feeling ko, may insecurities...ang judgmental ko na ba? anyway, wish ng mom niya, mapabago siya ng bago niyang manliligaw...wala raw kasing bisyo yung guy...eh yung girl, marami...how i wish...

ano bang nakita ng guy sa kanya?

napaisip talaga ako...bakit ako, hanggang ngayon, walang matinong manliligaw? eh mas matino naman siguro ako kaysa sa kapitbahay namin? sabi ni ma, suplada daw kasi ako...sus! duh?!?! wala lang talagang matiyaga...ang hirap na makahanap ng lalaking matino ngayon noh...ni isang nagtangkang manligaw sa akin eh walang kotse (hindi ako materialistic...kaya lang, mas ok yung may kotse diba?) sabi ni kuya, tinataboy ko raw kasi sila...huh? hindi lang siguro sila persistent...sabi ni cathe, takot daw ako sa lalaki...huh? sabi nga nung sinagutan kong quiz kanina, "let the love begin" ang aking current song(corny!)...now who's not ready for love? ang hirap nang mag-isip...baka kasi masyado kung sinasarado yung puso ko for that special someone (i wonder who that one is...=P)

anyway, may bagong movie na naman sina hero at sandara...kainis kasi isa sa mga fave songs ko yung theme song...can't this be love? naalala ko dati, pinapakinggan ko talaga yung tape ng smokey mountain tapos sinusulat ko yung lyrics...nawala kasi yung...watchamacallit? basta yung cover nung tape na may lyrics na...tapos ngayon, si sarah pa ang kumanta...mukha siyang timang sa mtv...ako lang ang may karapatang ngumiti ng parang tanga noh...hehe! (am getting territorial...)

sige na nga...hahanapin ko pa si cupido...naligaw ata...;)

sino bang nagsabing kailangan ng pag-ibig para magmukhang maganda? natural ang kagandahan noh...tsaka, tama lang naman ang dami ng taong nagmamahal sa akin...i love them back...;) --> bang, bitter ba?

yey! am very much in cloud 9 today! based on experience, ganito talaga pag nakakabili ako ng havaianas...

after months of waiting, finally, the new stocks have arrived...and guess what? agawan sa store and ubusan na kung ubusan...sheesh! pero wala pa rin yung beaded ones na gusto ko...i saw one from a classmate months ago...limited edition yon ha...i guess sa states na siguro pinabili (eh sa Über rich yon eh)...

hypothesis:
i'll always be addicted to havaianas...saturation point? siguro pag nabili ko na yung plain white havaianas or yung beaded ones na gusto ko...

i'm tempted to order through the net na...or baka magpapabili na lang ako sa relatives ko sa states...sheesh! talk about addiction...

so there...i bought my new pair...and i'm just totally happy...a bit speechless of course...=P

THIS WAS THE NEW ONE I BOUGHT:

THE BEADED ONES I LIKE TO BUY:

gaya ng aking pinangako, eto na ang second installment ng aming bosing na si joyie, the national artist of the bibes (as i have so forth declared this 20th day of March, 2005). marahil kayo'y nagtataka...bakit nga ba bibe kami? ako rin ay naguluhan noon...napatingin sa salamin...akala ko'y bibe na ang babati sa akin. hindi pala...buti na lang? ano nga ba yung sinabi ni bosing dati? ang bibe raw, kahit mababaw o malalim ang tubig, hanggang dibdib pa rin yan. o diba...yan ang booster mula kay joyie...optimism boost sa harap ng kangaragan. proud akong maging bibe kahit pa hindi na tuloy ang punta fuego (huhu!). eh ano ngayon? it's their loss, not ours. bora na kasi guys.

• Isang entity na malakas ang pagdwell sa slumber, sitsiritsit-alibangbang duo, kikay kolehiyala by day, mad hagikgik-er by night. Human typewriter. Tahimik pero nasa loob ang kulot (hehe!); Sobra! Puputok na litid ko kakagising sayo! hehe! todo mantika lipids -> cholesterol level na!

JOYIE/joh-yee/ (n), (adj)

• Isang phenomenon, controversial, highly-desirable (state of being) =P

HEIDI/hay-dee/

• Isang alamat (na galing sa lupa! hehe!). Malufet. Mahilig magsuicide. Love ko to: KEKS1

MARIAN/mar-yan/

• Silent water, deadly flood; KEKS2 (Killer Eyes, Killer Smile); isang mito (myth is a female moth, hehe!)

KRYSTEL/krîs-tel/

• Nasa proseso ng banyuhay (from residential -> komersyal -> tourist -> red light district -> sex video)...(ndi ata, may pagtalon pala sa process :)); nightlife phase (homey/enclosed); (kikay); (sense of community, sense of belongingness, acceptance :))

CJ/si-gzay/

• 12 mm tadpole. Isang institusyon sa prostitusyon; diyos ng antok at tulo laway...hehe! Involuntary sleeper/tulo laway/narcolepsy! Sexual being. Easter egg boy. Tatay na...wala pang anak.

pahiRapan na naman...karaMihan ng subjects ko eh nag-move ng exam...puro after hoLy week...

gawd! ang hiRap taLagang maging esTudYante...

ah basta! i feel good today...kahit pa tinuLugan ko yung pag-aaRal para sa eXam ko...kebs?!

matataPos na yung maLate paper...buKas na ang pResentation...yeY! tis fiNally oVer...

ayoko na isipin ang mga low grades for this sem...at least i survived noh...achievement na ito...

Your Brain is 73.33% Female, 26.67% Male

Your brain leans female You think with your heart, not your head Sweet and considerate, you are a giver But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

sit (sitsiritsit) signing in:

am too emotional right now...shucks!

imagine me...crying in front of the PC...watisdat?!?!?

krystel: kelangan i-exercise ang emosyon kasi puro utak nalang ang gumagana...

righty-o...comeonit! tama si krystel/krystenelli/alibangbang/bang...i-balanse ko naman ang matagal nang out of balance...thanks partner! kailan ang shooting ng next sex video? =P

my sis had her debut last night...

am so exhausted...akala ko pa naman rest day ko na...pero ok lang since enjoy din naman. =P

i was so busy with the preparations...then the emcee backed out at the last minute...haha! from the very start, i was doubtful about my sister's choice of emcee...not that i don't like them...kaya lang, from the very start, may problems na...so why pursue with that choice diba? (so pessimistic of me) luckily, krystel, my new found partner in crime, was there to the rescue...she was so good that everyone was laughing during our hosting stint (yeah right...i was emcee too...unfortunately...) things could have been better if we were prepared but i guess it was the best hosting we had done so far...considering that we're not on drugs (coffee is a legal narcotic, you know...) first line pa lang, i stuttered already...shit talaga pero sige pa rin...it was an interactive hosting job with me and krystel towing the microphone line with us and talking to the guests...i guess they liked that portion (especially the attention-loving people...no offense meant guys)

pros of being an emcee

• i have control of the situation...
• it's good exercise (talk about getting sweaty...plus jaw exercise na rin)
• total exposure =P

cons of being an emcee

• i was doing the video shooting and camera taking for the event plus i was hosting so that was a major "watisdat???"
• i can't entertain guests (which i liked to do last night)
• i didn't eat well (i had to settle for 2 glasses of white wine...i got tipsy later at the house...i slept while watching a movie on DVD and woke up talking in words that weren't in the dictio --> this was based on mart and cathe's report)
• i was too blame for the mishaps (like cutting the cake at around 11 pm...bahala na sila magutom...hehe!)

ah basta! i enjoyed the night...i was pretty daw although 2 out of 3 people told me i was getting fat daw...hay! pumayat na nga ako eh...more diet pa siguro...

i also got to open cathe's presents...siyempre joint effort talaga sa house since busy ang lahat...aa and i helped cathe with the presents and mart got to hold everything for us...for those who don't know the two...aa and mart are two guy friends who are currently residing in iloilo, but they were here for cathe's debut...o ha...diba astig?! anyway, puro pink yung presents ni cathe...i feel like i'm wearing pink glasses...as in "pink na naman?!"...gawd! kaka-baliw you know...

credits
thanks to the following people who made the night special:

• krystel/krystenelli/alibangbang (bang for short) --> you have proven yourself a worthy partner...thanks talaga for everything...you know my issues...salamat sa pag-iintindi...i'll always be here...thank you sa pagsalo ng emcee job with me...galing mo talaga last night...they loved your jokes...may correlation ba ang taba sa pagiging funny? (uy...no offense meant here ha) this page won't really be enough to thank you talaga...
• cj/siege --> salamat sa pagkanta...
• joy --> thanks for the gadgets...salamat for being present...i know how busy you are but you still took the night off yesterday...
• danci aka the ever present EV --> salamat sa pagdalo...haay! may kasabay si krystel pag-uwi...i'm grateful for that pa lang...
• cathe --> salamat sa trust at pinili mo aking emcee...sus! hindi ko linya 'yon noh...
• the waiter and the bar people --> thank you for always following my orders...sensya na...buti na lang at iniwan niyo na yung wine bottle sa table namin...kaya lang hindi na po siya malamig...
• aa and mart --> na galing pa sa iloilo...na involved din sa cramming...na naglakad mula sa labas ng village east thinking na malapit lang ang clubhouse =P...thanks na rin (kahit pa iniwan niyong bukas ang gate at naghanap pa ako ng mga aso sa labas...hindi po ako galit)...see you all sa holy week...
• sa 3n1 parlor --> salamat sa footspa, pedicure, at sa pag-aayos ng hair ko for the event...
• sa caterer (headed by cynthia) --> sayang...hindi ako masyadong nakakain...pero masarap yung food and i loved the flower arrangements...thanks for the pink flower (whatever that's called)
• kay ice --> salamat sa paghahatid sa amin sa village east...
• kim --> thanks for the make-up...
• thanks to nothing but water, 50th ave, and bead shop for my outfit and accessories...
• thanks to gayuma for the BTS cake...eh sa yun yung dessert ko ng mga madaling araw na...

general verdict for that night: fun! fun! fun! cathe finally had her digicam (sony cybershot at that), her 18 small cakes, and her dream debut (with all the singers and bands in it)...

can i just share? nakakatawa coz earlier that day, we went to check out the venue...some catering company were preparing in the first floor...my dad was nearly angry because the motif was in blue and gold (my sister's pink and green) and there was no tarpaulin (my sis had a big one made)...yun pala, may party sa second floor and the catering company thought it was on the first floor...60th bday pa yon ha...so there...mix-up lang talaga pero funny talaga...so, lahat ng oldies sa taas while the freshies were in the first floor...dapat sa first floor na lang yung matatanda kasi diba mapapagod silang umakyat pa sa stairs? =P

= ngarag! =

that's not the perfect word but i think it's the closest i can think of to describe how the past week went...i can't even imagine myself going through the experience again but hey! we're doing this again next week...this time, we're staying at cj's house...good luck to me! (and everybody else in the group for that matter)

i really need sleep...really really need sleep! am such a primadonna kanina sa group pero i still need to sleep...sobrang ako ata ang matakaw sa tulog...i promote eating and sleeping...haha! they have this theory that the more you eat, the more you will feel sleepy...i don't really care...eating is a distraction in itself...it is a distraction from the sleeping spell that's bound to cast over me as the clock strikes midnight...

it's kinda weird that the group has to have two straight overnights in a week...it's becoming a habit na...first time, it was at krystel's house...then it was at my house...then it will be at cj's...oh well...next time, punta fuego na...hehe!;)

ang saya lang to have all these overnights despite the fact that we're doing the paper...we've become more bonded...bulgaran na talaga kung bulgaran...i really am going to miss this group...the "play dead" moments (sorry...private joke), the peanut butter tasting coffee, the 3 am habit, the sleeping moments captured through video, krystel's vtr =P, joy sleeping (huh?!?!), schizo marian, cj's tadpole stage, heidi's talent to not sleep at all (that's an exaggeration), weird attractions (mainly for me), wendy's moments the analytical analysis...everything...we're all crazy especially if we haven't slept at all...thus, krystel has coined the term "psychiatric ward"...we've become a bunch of crazy people in a span of less than a semester...ain't that funny? i love this group...but, just as joy had said, mahirap tawaging barkada ang grupo...it's difficult to become so attached...siguro nga tama siya...

minsan nga, mapapaisip ka...how superficial can one get? how can you tell if it's deep enough? baka malunod ka lang sa kakakapa sa ilalim...nung unang sinabi sa akin ni joy na mahirap tawaging ang isang taong bestfriend, natameme lang ako...i dunno how me and bri, my bes, become bestfriends at all...mutual understanding lang for me...pero, from all those times i've called someone a bestfriend, i've become more open to joy's idea...in calling someone a bestfriend, you have more to lose and gain...there will be more responsibilities to each other...nandiyan yung bond...nakakatakot...baka masira ko lang...ganon...i dunno why i'm telling this at all...NOT THAT I TOTALLY AGREE with joy's idea...she thought me a lot about things...investment and dedication...mas natutunan kong ma-appreciate ang mga friends ko...mas na-realize ko yung importance ng friendship more than anything else...more than the "position" you give to a person...

enaco...issues na naman...

oh well, am just going to miss this group...

the bibe group made me realize na whether i look good or not, basta may camera (xda, digicam, or clie man yan), smile lang ng smile, look stupid, and look cute...eh sa may picture taking eh...

also, one name is not enough...may krystenelli, joyie at tiniwinie (that's moi)...may partners na sitsiritsit aka sit (that's me again) and alibangbang aka bang (that's krystel naman)...

this group has it's own creative side in creating new out of this world words and phrases...the php200 phenomenon, KNK, FUP, the coffee phenomenon...etcetera...syempre, si coñotic sounding bang ang bahala dyan and complicated acronym generator and dictionary joyie (right?!)

dito nauso ang okrayan...ututan...at iba pa (wag niyo na lang isipin...katakyut!)...can i be straightforward? can i just?

sa amin kumita ang wendy's...ang ballpen section ng national bookstore...ang mahal na photocopier sa Malate LTO...and LRT2 and LRT1...

kami ang nagpudpod ng kalsada ng malate at rob manila (to the point na nagkaroon na ng trail from national bookstore to wendy's...hehe! =P)

sa amin nabuhay ang madaling araw...ang walang patid na kainan...ang mala-patay gutom na paglamon...ang kasabikan sa panibagong pagkaing nakaabang...

fave number na namin ang 118...sus! ano ba yang 140/145/12/71/160?

it's good to reminisce of these moments guys...it may be hard to let go of some things, but it does feel good to remember...

am looking for another mental moment with everyone...sensya na...mantika talaga akong matulog...iniinit po ang mantika para magising...

i dedicate this post to the bibe group...

"palayain ang isa't isa...kung uno, uno talaga..." ;)

this is it...this is really is it...

am just exhausted...

i spent thursday and friday doing a major paper for psych at a friend's house...swerte na talaga ang 2 hours sleep...

then, major shopping today naman...went to rob cainta for mass, mongkok at sta. lu for lunch, shangrila for havaianas shopping, then walked all the way to rob galle for more havaianas shopping and outfit shopping as well (for cathe's debut), metrowalk bazaar for some more shopping, and finally, rob metroeast for groceries. imagine...six malls for a day! talo pa rin kami ni mama and papa...seven sa kanila...kasama ang fiestamall alabang...oh well...

am having a major headache...i feel sick already...

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