Sunday, February 27, 2005
bad gurl...
bad trip talaga...sa lahat ng ayaw ko eh yung pinakikialaman yung buhay ko...
kainis! ayan tuloy...distracted na naman ako...can't study well...
well, at least i can blame someone for all the mess i'm getting into...
| nadZ went splisha-splashing at 8:32 pm
Saturday, February 26, 2005
busy...yeah right! what's new???
talk about being too hectic...3 exams next week...
my sister's debut preparations...
and major decision-making...
the thought of all these makes me feel terrible...
just took a time off these worries when i watched a play a while ago...well, at least 'twas fun...free food nga pero i don't drink coffee naman eh...unless it was from starbucks. ;)
that's all for now folks...have to finish a paper, review for at least a subject, and finish my sister's debut invitations (it's not yet done...it's supposed to be out next week pa naman).
can i just (krystel mode going on)...am just excited for my sister's debut...there's going to be a lot of singing...and a band's playing...haay...i'm starting to like music na talaga...and i have sessionroad to thank for that...=P
| nadZ went splisha-splashing at 1:31 am
Wednesday, February 23, 2005
goLdfiSh eYes...
guess what? it's 6:30 in the morning and I'm still awake...haven't slept at all except for a quick nap awhile ago...just sharing...i'm enjoying doing the analysis part of our paper in psych 118...so weird talaga...
i just hope i had this energy when i studied for my bio12 lec exam...eh di ang saya sana diba?!
ewan ko ba? iba ito...talo ang venti mocha frap...can i just? twas my first time to drink a venti mocha frap last saturday and i feel guilty about it...aside from the expense part eh panira rin siya ng diet habit...oh well...noel...
finally, my brain cells are working...
and i'm not sleeping anytime soon...
| nadZ went splisha-splashing at 6:15 am
Monday, February 21, 2005
eh pareho pareho lang naman yan noh!
information overload!just had my bio 12 lab exam today...am so exhausted...
yoko na ng mga plants!!!
alin, alin, alin ang naiba? basta may dahon, halaman na yan...
am talking nonsense na...unless you want me to lecture on plant diversity...
joke na nga muna...
knock, knock!
who's there?
LYCOPODIUM...
lycopodium...touched for the very first time...
knock, knock ule...
who's there?
AURICULARIA...
auricularia, auricularia, yeah...(to the tune of aricomambo...shit! tama ba spelling?!)
meron pa...uhm...
zzzzz......brain cells recharging.
| nadZ went splisha-splashing at 6:34 pm
Friday, February 18, 2005
 Cancer - Your Love ProfileYour positive traits: You're intuitive enough to know what's going wrong in a relationship early on A total sweetheart - you're often the most caring person anyone knows You are a generous and devoted parter to whoever you fall in love with Your negative traits: Insecurity - you tend to need a huge amount of comforting from your partner You tend to be overly sensitive and easily hurt, which make loving you difficult It's difficult to predict your moods. One minute you're up - the next you're down. Your ideal partner: Someone equally sensitive, who wants to take time to get to know you deeply Dreams of an everlasting love - complete with marriage and a family Loves to take care of you. Being a good cook and masseuse doesn't hurt! Your dating style: Slow. You enjoy dates that last all day, with plenty of time to talk and get to know one another. Your seduction style: Quite tender and loving, once you are comfortable in your relationship. Coy. You tend to play it cool to drive your lover wild. Orally talented - you're known as the best kisser in the zodiac. Tips for the future: Be a little less sensitive. Not every little mistake should hurt you. Spend time away from your partner every so often - independence is a good thing. Find ways to take care of yourself. You'll be happier if you put yourself first. Best place to meet someone online: eHarmony - you'll be able to take the time to get to know each potential match well Best color to attract mate: Aqua Best day for a date: Wednesday Get your free love profile at Blogthings. |
| nadZ went splisha-splashing at 9:10 pm
day buzz
Hay!I can't go to the UP Fair this week. Sobrang busy kasi...
Pansin niyo ba? Everytime may fair eh may nauusong fashion statement sa UP...Whatelse?! Eh di henna tattoos...
A lot of people have been sporting this. Yung isa ko ngang groupmate eh meron din...as in ngayon ko lang siya nakitang mag spags...syempre, para makita naman yung tattoo diba. Alangan namang itago niya diba. What's the point?! Yeah right!
Had a great time today rin...despite the heat. Gosh! February pa lang eh ang tindi na ng pawis moments ko. Fine! I'm on a diet pero duh?! Ayokong pumayat this way na nagmumukhang sweaty and all. Dyahe ha...
Ang high ko talaga kanina. Now, I know I've changed. Dalawang na ang table ko sa CASAA...yung isa eh sa Psych buddies ko and yung isa eh sa kada ko from Speech Comm. Saya lang kanina. It's been a long time since I've met up with them...kahit sina Yella, Bri, EA, Tong, and JP lang ang naabutan ko kanina. Nanibago ata sila sa akin. Am so happy lang talaga kanina. It was fun kasi super update sa mga latest love buzz...as usual...wala pa rin akong matinong makwento pagdating dyan but who cares? (me?!)
WORD FOR THE DAY: gumayugay
| nadZ went splisha-splashing at 8:40 pm
Thursday, February 17, 2005
biO madNess...
ayan ka na namannagbabago
nawawala
nang hindi mo namamalayan
iba na ang ihip ng hangin
iba na ang daloy ng dagat
iba na ng panahon
ramdam mo ba?
maraming pagsisisi
panghihinayang
walang magawa
marahil, ganyan talaga
ayoko na
ako ma'y nagsasawa rin
papansin at tanga
sa harap mo
panahon na sigurong lumayo
kahit panandalian lang
umaasang baka sakaling
ako nama'y maalala mo
| nadZ went splisha-splashing at 4:48 pm
Sunday, February 13, 2005
aLcoHoL anD cigaRette smOke
HAD ONE OF MY BEST TIME YESTERDAY!!!Yep! I was off to Malate yesterday...again! I was like "when will these Malate trips end?!?!"
A groupmate, Marian, and I went to some surveying with employees first, but it was a flop! Imagine, 3 respondents in an hour! So pathetic! We only got one good respondent. The rest just chatted with us and joked us around. The guard was calling me Kitchie for Christ's sake! Pucca! I don't even know her.
Nehow, I had a wonderful time yesterday my psych classmates. Malate was roaring with life yesterday with the Lovapalooza event nearby. We first went to the Lovapalooza to check out the event. If you are asking if I was starstruck seeing Iya, Drew, and Juddha on stage...well, I wasn't. I was more concerned with my belongings and the crazy bunch of people around me. It wasn't a place for the weak of heart nor for the claustrophobic. I was too preoccupied with several things that I couldn't even smell the people around me despite the fact that we're like rubbing elbows with each other.
Eventually, I got out of that busy section and went to the Remedios Circle where me and my friends joked and chatted while waiting for some friends who were coming with us also. We were supposed to be only 6 in the group (CJ but 3 more came with us to Malate namely Danci (who was always with us during our bar nights and who looked like a DI that night...hehe!), Balbz (classmate and nay to Heidi and Jools), and Jools (Heidi's bf). After playing the Japan, Czechoslovakia, and buwan game (which I still can't understand), we went to Common Ground for some dancing (well...at least for some). We did some talking, drinking and eating. I only drank iced tea and that strange mango juice (which seems to have some alcohol in it) and ate the food I didn't pay for (I am so lucky to have generous classmates...thanks guys!). Six of them went dancing at the room nearby. God knows how they survived. It was so full that you can't even dance. If I can dance, I'll just stand at the room where I was in. You can't even move in the room where all the dancing takes place. Eventually, my friends went out of the terrible place. You could just imagine how they looked like when they went out...wet, sweaty and dazed.
After absorbing all the smoke from the burning cigarettes and feeling teary-eyed from all that stuff, my friends and I eventually moved out of the place and observed the street party going on at Nakpil. Malate was so alive that night. We even went to this side street, which was a renowned gay area, just to observe the people and the situation. Siksikan talaga. I could barely move. I watched a bit of their show wherein there were gay performers and almost naked men clad in boxer shorts. Shux! We went out of that place in less than five minutes coz we can't stand the fact that it was so crowded. I don' t care if the people there were giving my friends and I strange stares. After all, it was a place for homosexuals...gorgeous-looking homosexuals. No wonder the gorgeous-looking male populace is deteriorating in number. It was funny coz we were thinking that they're probably thinking what if these people were thinking that we're not actually straight men and women and that we had undergone sex transplant to "look like men and women". They might even ask us who our doctors were. Hehe! =P
At 2am, we went at a videoke in Mabini to do some singing. Italy room was so conducive for sleeping. Eventually, we went home at around 3:30 am.
About 10 hours later, I woke up in my own bed...dumbfounded that I slept for almost 10 hours.
Darn! Have to study pa...
Til next time guys! You'll be hearing more of my Malate adventures...
Happy V-day everyone!!! I don't want to hear that you're having babies nine months from now...;)
Happy burtdei to all those concerned.
And uhm...Ok lang kahit chocolates or flowers for tomorrow. Thanks guyzies!;)
| nadZ went splisha-splashing at 5:37 pm
Saturday, February 12, 2005
ala lng...
kitiN's fiNally makiNg paramdam!!! yey! scary...ang coñotic...=P
| nadZ went splisha-splashing at 12:21 am
Friday, February 11, 2005
leTTer ba?!
it's malate day again tomorrow! AGAIN?!?!and it's nakpil day...have to be prepared for HEAVY PARTYING...that is if i don't get exhausted doing the survey at around 5pm...geesh! busy na naman.
sabi nila, GC ang mga psych people coz most of them are going into med or law school. now, i'm feeling the pressure lalo na sa grades. i realized that my grades are dwindling. i dunno if it's my fault or what...basta...and to think of it, i'm thinking of taking the NMAT this summer. shit! i haven't even studied for it diba?! as the cliche goes, para akong pumapasok sa giyera ng wala man lang armas. stock knowledge ba? i can't even rely on my memory...feeling ko puro short term memory na nagagamit ko lately...
pressure sa school...troubled about relationships in general...
friends. i hang out with a different set of friends now. i do miss the ORGASM people...yung kulitan, daldalan, food trip, ingay, kalokohan, at iba pa. pero i do have to admit that i enjoy being with my set of friends now. feeling ko, ang dami kong nagagawa na hindi ko nagagawa dati...nakakagimik na ako ngayon. iba yung feeling with them...and this scares me. hindi ko alam kung bakit...hindi ko ma-explain. i just don't like changes...especially drastic ones.
i miss bes...i rarely see her na...hindi ko na rin siya nakakasabay pag-uwi. honestly, hindi ko na talaga siya tini-text para sabay kaming umuwi...just don't wanna be disappointed siguro. ayokong mainis at magalit. sakit na ba toh? reality check nadz...don't worry bes...i'll get over this phase...
hay naku! krystel, if you happen to stumble upon my blog, thanks talaga...ang dami na rin nating napagdaanan partner, seatmate, classmate, at iba pa (sayang...psych 145 na lang next sem)...salamat sa gimik, sa pagpapakain sa akin sa bahay niyo, sa cellphone babad, sa food trips, sa kakaibang lingo, sa zagu, sa bowling, sa kantahan at videoke, sa saya at lungkot, sa puyatan sa telepono, sa tsimisan, sa pagpapakilala ng Wendy's, sa libreng burger (next time ule!), sa okray moments, sa hindi pag-iwan sa 118, at higit sa lahat, for getting to know me better...pucca! dami na pala non ha...gaya ng lagi kong sinasabi, your secrets will always be safe with me...
ivy, dean, and jl...salamat sa pagiging bahagi ng inyong triad...na ngayon ay nagiging square na...salamat at dahil sa inyo ay nagiging masama na rin ako...hehe!;)
to joy, heidi, marian and cj...salamat talaga...joy...salamat sa enlightenment...sana superwoman din ako like you...salamat sa inspirational talks, toothbrush theory, diet tips at kung anu-ano pa...
how pathetic of me to post this...bahala na...
| nadZ went splisha-splashing at 11:22 pm
mY biG, yeLLow baLLoon
geez!
lapit na pala ng Valentine's Day...haay! pre-valentine's jitters...
i didn't even feel it coming...i just felt the stress from my exams...god! have to work harder...there goes my dreams (?) of going to UP PGH...
i just failed my physics exam...by a POINT! F****** POINT!
bio's my great big hope...shit! bio?!
~0~0~
i was looking at the colorful balloons at PHAN last tuesday, wondering when i'd receive one for myself...pugadeers kept on approaching me to purchase one balloon to give to someone. don't you think i should be the one receiving the balloon?
anyway, i did take home a balloon last tuesday but that was from psychsoc's...imagine me, commuting via public transpo, carrying one gigantic yellow balloon...fine! it is after all the eve of the chinese new year and i'm in a very festive mood with a yellow balloon to match.
by the way, just for fun, i tried playing with a girl's hair at the fx that night...i was thinking that her hair would stand out if i place the balloon near her hair...but that didn't happen...sayang!
~0~0~
speaking of chinese new year...i slept through the celebration...and to think of it, i was so ready to use the rest of the fireworks here at home...BUT I JUST SLEPT THROUGH IT ALL!!! damn! blame it on wasting about an hour looking for tikoy at the grocery.
at least i ate my fave shrimps that night...
| nadZ went splisha-splashing at 1:30 am
Monday, February 07, 2005
paRanOid or deLusioNaL?
I had a very wonderful day. I've started (once again) my diet program. I really have to shed this fats (as in now na!). I had a wonderful breakfast and afternoon snack (lettuce, chicken, cheese, garlic toast, with caesar salad dressing). I rarely eat veggies, but I kinda liked the food I concocted awhile ago. Then, for more snack, I ate pasta. I just have to have pasta (despite my diet). At least it was seafood pasta (not the one at French Baker which looks weird --> my bes hates this!).
Yet, despite my wonderful day, it won't be complete without a few minor glitches. One of which is a low score for my 2nd bio lab exam. Totally expected. Oh well...there was no one to blame for it but me.
And then, there was Physics. The mock exam didn't push through as scheduled. This is the second time already. Namumuro na talaga yang prof ko. Then, I didn't get the right answer for my recit. Again?!?! What's happening to me. Is this a student who's planning to go into med school? (note: planning, not so decided yet)
The worst part of the day? Well, I bow to her royal lowness, my latest seatmate in Physics. She who often comes to class late and ngarag. She who owns a frog stuffed toy which she puts on top of her table. The same blue frog stuffed toy which she strokes and strokes as if it were a real pet. (Eww!) She who boasts of the same DAMN BLUE FROG STUFFED TOY!!!
I dunno if I'm just paranoid or what but her outfit sure looks familiar. Didn't I wear a quite similar outfit of the same style last Monday? She was wearing this plain white top over her cream flowy skirt and some ballet flats. Shit! I dunno if I'm just being paranoid or delusional, but the way she looked today wasn't one for comfort. Last week, I found out that I have a stalker and now, NOW, i have a fan?! Is this how fashion icons feel? (Ok, I'm sounding ridiculous.) But for God's sake, I don't feel flattered seeing other people look like me...especially if that someone who looks like me is someone I don't like. Just seeing "her" makes my blood boil (this was since the first time I saw her). May ganito talagang feeling...yung hindi mo ma-explain pero inis ka talaga sa tao sa unang tingin pa lang. I have to admit this isn't the first time this happened. Grr!
She looked stupid. A friend even thought she was pregnant before...just imagine how a pregnant woman looks like. She's awkward, stuck-up, and...and...and...enough na nga! Basta! This is seeming to be more of hate than inis. F@*#! I just have to relish the thought that she looked stupid a while ago. It seems like she has just shopped last weekend for her outfit (except for her shirt). Her white shirt looked more of dirty white to me. Her skirt...oh well, it did look nice but it was too long for her. Patangkad ka muna dear. And her ballet flats were really beautiful with the silver glittery accents and all...BUT! Black ballet flats + cream skirt + dirty white shirt + purplish reddish (whatever!) tote bag = FASHION VICTIM!
Manggagaya na nga lang, mali pa!
See my point? Ayokong may nanggagaya ng style ko lalo pa't hindi ko siya gusto. Ayokong may nanggagaya ng style ko tapos palpak naman ang combination ng colors. If I'm some fashion icon, I don't want those who imitate me look stupid. Lenchak na epitome 'yan oh...
Whew! That was nice. It sure feels good to let all those words out. From now on, I'm going to follow your every move and if I've proven that you're really imitating my style, ha! Humanda ka talaga. Now, I'm acting weird...
| nadZ went splisha-splashing at 6:25 pm
Saturday, February 05, 2005
laSt nighT's hanGoveR
Suntok sa Buwan
by Sessionroad
hindi mo ba alam
damdamin ko’y pinagtakpan
makasama ka’y suntok sa buwan
‘di mo nga alam
mundo mo nga’y iyong tingnan
kung ganyan, walang pupuntahan
hindi ko ‘to gusto
pero wag kang lalayo
itanong mo sa akin
at tatanungin ko rin
kung ika’y aamin
lahat ay gagawin
‘di mo napapansin
kailangan mo akong dinggin
‘di habang buhay ika’y aantayin
ito’y aking hiling
at sana naman ay tanggapin
nang puso ko’y di nabibitin
| nadZ went splisha-splashing at 2:06 pm
i'm alive, alert, awake, enthusiastic!!!
gawd! am blaming my excess amount of adrenaline...ang new sleeping habits (like sleeping at 4am)...hindi ako makatulog!
eh di blogging na lang...come on! let's try to be productive here!
hulaan niyo kung saan ako galing...
sige pa...
ay...ang slow...
ok! fine! i went to a bar concert...yeah! gumigimik na rin ako...
malate kasi eh...
it's psychsoc's anniversary so they had a bar concert at chakik's ortigas...join naman ako...si krystel kasi nagbenta ng tickets (yuck! somewhat bitter ba? nah...not really!)
ayon...aside from the fact na nabingi ako sa ilang walang kwentang ingay (kung si danci pa eh "yung kumanta ng isang kanta lang"), hindi ako nakakain ng kahit ano sa chakiks (sa kabilang kainan pa ako nakikain), masikip yung place, maraming tao, at magulo...eh so far...over-all verdict: SAYA! SARAP ULITIN!
kung tutuusin pa nga eh 4am na ako nakatulog...ka-badtripan...dahil sa paper (na hindi naman pinasa), report (na hindi natuloy), consolidation (na hindi rin nagamit)...tapos, yung hindi ko ginawa which is (take note!) to study for the recit (na aking kinram ng mga 7am...30 mins before class) ay siya namang natuloy. haay...fate talaga!!!
hemingways, i had a wonderful day naman...helping krystel and marian with their PKK paper (which was really fun?!?!)...listening to radical PO stories in my psych 118 class...having block pictures taken (haay...hindi talaga ako photogenic)...and sleeping at chinie's house (drop dead na talaga sa antok). nahuli nga lang yung panggising na bar concert pero ang saya talaga...as in! no words can explain it.
ayun...maraming kumantang bands...may nagwala...buti na lang at nawala talaga. magkasunod na kinanta ang aking fave at not so fave songs...namely Crazy For You and Wag na Wag Mong Sasabihin...kumanta ang Stonefree (tama ba? sensya guyzies)...at syempre, ang Sessionroad...haay! ang saya talaga...galing! may autograph session pa...ano ba yan?! starstruck?!
hindi pa sana ako aalis...sayang...nag-stay pa raw sila at nag-inuman...oh well...i don't drink naman...baka gatas daw ininom sabi ni joyie...hehe! ang loka talaga...
siga na nga...hindi ko talaga kayang i-express ang aking feelings...overwhelming!
dilemma: am i still going to greenhills and galle tomorrow???
think, think, think! ;)
morning to y'all!!!
tama na...sobra na! (2:30 am, Feb. 5, 2005)
| nadZ went splisha-splashing at 1:48 am
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
eruPtiNg voLcaNo...
If there's some thing I'm weak at, I'd say it would be handling emotions. Fortunately, it still has not led me to any psychological problems, but it is this surge of feelings that sometimes brings me into trouble.
I refuse to talk to some of my seatmates in class. Not that I'm angry at them or anything. I don't have halitosis ha. The reason's plain and simple. I don't like them. That's it. The moment I see them, my blood boils. Ok...that's an overstatement. I think that's pretty usual naman. I dunno if it's an instinct of some sort. I think they notice it sometimes...especially when I start looking at them from head to foot. It's a new habit of mine...and I don't really like it.
I often get irritated lately...sometimes, to the point of hating a person. The problem is, I seldom clear things up with the concerned people. I just keep the anger to myself. It's dangerous. You never know when the volcano would be erupting. If it's called self-control well, I may as well be called the master. Parang ang plastic tuloy ng pakikitungo ko sa tao. I just don't want to injure or severe any relationship I have with people by telling to them the truth. It's not that easy confessing to them what I feel about them. Go try...
In time for Valentine's day this February, I better tell you my feelings regarding love...particularly the boy-girl type of love. You get what I mean? My sister tells me I'm afraid of guys. Love-phobic ba? Love is something I surely don't know how to deal with. I've been trying to find any repressed situations which could best serve as reasons for not being able to deal with love properly. I've been telling myself that I'll fall in love with someone who has first become my friend. But, I'm afraid of destroying friendships out of love.
Remember my guy friend who texted me "I love you" in Finnish and Berber? We finally settled matters. He meant to say "I love you" as a friend. I dunno if I was relieved or what. Tama naman diba? I mean, it's just proper to settle things for now. I've had friends who had problems with the combination of friendship and love. More than anything else, I'm scared of losing friendship. Friendship seems safer and definite. Love is riskier and uncertain. Nakakainis naman kasi. Tama namang magduda ako sa sinabi niya diba? First of all, we're both heterosexuals and saying "I love you" with each other could mean different things. Second, we're both adults. "I love you" is such a powerful term for me now. See...I'm trying to rationalize here. I don't want to psychoanalyze things. Being too analytic can turn out to be more confusing. I've proven that a lot of times. Awfully, a lot times.
| nadZ went splisha-splashing at 1:32 am
